All About Me

As soon as I upload the pictures from Sarah's birthday, which should be later on today, I will share with you the wonderful day (or "the best birthday ever" - in her words) she had yesterday. In the meantime I wanted to share my big day today with you.

I am a mom first and foremost. I think that is pretty obvious on this blog. I put the other 5 people in this family ahead of me because that is just what I do. I do it willingly and I try to do it graciously (except when I don't). BUT, and this is a big but, sometimes I do this to a fault, and then I have all of this explosive energy in me which turns into resentment and that is never a pretty emotion. My feelings are all of my own doing, and I know this. I have been trying to be better about it by getting out regularly. Bob is GREAT about seeing the telltale signs that I have had it, and then gently offering me the opportunity to get out of the house for a while. I also have been really trying to get out weekly, but with the holidays and Sarah's birthday that wasn't happening during the weekdays like I had intended it to.

Which leads me to today. With Bob's blessing, (I think his exact reaction two days ago when I told him I was going to do something big for myself was, "It's about time. I have been trying to get you to do something for yourself for the last 13 years."), I am going to treat myself to a day of pampering me. I am going to go to a second hand store in town that sells really nice clothes to buy myself some new clothes. Then I am going to get my hair colored and cut. Followed by a good eyebrow waxing. Next I am going to go get my nails done. Finally, I am going to go out and buy myself a couple of pairs of cheap earrings and some make up. (I haven't worn makeup in forever.) Can you believe all of this?!!! Today will be all about me, and I am so excited I could hardly sleep last night.

I am tired of feeling like a frumpy mom. I want to feel good, and I want to look good. I told Bob that I am going to make taking care of the outside of my body more of priority. I deserve this day, and its about time I finally acknowledged it.

Happy Monday!!!