The Waiting Place

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Knowledge of our future is going to be given to us on Monday when Bob's boss comes back from a week long meeting in Home Office that discussed (among many, many other things) Bob's future. One of my most favorite things about Bob's boss is that he is very transparent. He has always been open and honest with Bob. I have appreciated that immensely.

When we first moved here we moved with the notion that we would be here 2-3 years. As time went on we received inklings that this may not be the case and that Bob was to be brought up to speed as fast as possible so that he would be ready for the next step in his career. This, of course, was great news to us. Bob has worked really hard to get where he is at and for a long time we felt like we were living in the Dr. Suess book, All the Places You'll Go, at the waiting place part. We were waiting for a job to open up, waiting for a successful interview, waiting for Sarah to stabilize, waiting, waiting, waiting...It was a really hard time for both Bob and me to say the least. As with everything in life, that time passed, and we did find that we moved out of that waiting place into a great job in a great city called Las Cruces, New Mexico.

Because Bob is doing amazing and because baby boomers are beginning to retire at a higher rate than can be replenished Bob's career looks like it is going to move a bit faster than the 2-3 year timeline we were initially given. This is great news...except for the fact that we are back in the Waiting Place again.

Prior to Bob's boss going to this meeting he told Bob that he felt confident in his ability to lead and that he was going to rate Bob as being ready for the next level of his career in the next 0-12 months. What this means for us is that at any moment we could get the phone call or email letting us know that we are going on to the next place. Nothing really happens in the fourth quarter, so I do not anticipate moving before the new year. But I would not be surprised if we have been moved on by June of 2016. But, then again, maybe we won't. That is the nature of the Waiting Place. You know that you are going to be moving on, but you don't know when or where to. You don't know if you should plan a future where you are or if you should start to close up shop emotionally because you know the sting and hurt of leaving a people you love.

It is a hard place to live. Even if it is only temporarily. Even the kids feel restless. They have been through this process once before and they know how it works. They are having dreams about moving. As am I. In the last couple of weeks I have had about 5 dreams a week about moving. It is constantly a conversation in my subconsciousness which becomes apparent when I sleep.

We all try not to think about the future. We are all trying to live our best lives here, but the Waiting Place restlessness has entered into all of our minds and hearts. I hope that I do not stop seeing the beauty here as I anxiously wait for what is yet to come.