And So I Will

Afraid of being seen as ungrateful I hide from the world. 

My thoughts and feelings remain locked away.

Until they come seeping out of me. 

Until they explode out of me. 

I just want to  feel how I feel

Instead of hiding from the world. 

To honor the Light and the Dark

Is the only way to live. 

But the Dark scares me. 

Maybe it scares me because 

Instead of getting to know it

Instead of understanding it

I run from it.

I bury it. 

So far from myself I feel.

Lost and alone. 

I fall and rise again.

And again. 

I will not stop rising. 

No matter how hard I fall. 

Or how deep I go.

The warrior in me

Begs me to not be so afraid of the Dark

She begs me to see my Dark - 

Not as something evil

But rather a place that has the absence of Light.

The Dark is begging to be seen 

And understood. 

It is only when I embrace the Dark

That I can bring in the Light. 

And so I will.